One afternoon, somewhere around 6 p.m., I collapsed on the sidewalk.
It happened really fast, yet it felt like forever. A bunch of images scrolled in front of my eyes; then everything was bright and loud, and then there was nothing. Pitch black darkness and voices calling my name from the distance. In the last moments of my consciousness, I thought to myself:
“This is it, I guess. Well, f*ck.”
I woke up to a light that was too bright to open my eyes for more than a second, and an unrecognizable reality. How much did I smoke and how much coffee did I drink? Have I eaten anything other than an apple in the morning?
Too much, definitely too much, and no. For months.
Next morning, lying in my bed, slowly regaining the movement of my arms and legs from the exhaustion of the previous day, I looked at the coffee machine creeping through the door frame.
“Oh no, you won’t. It’s time for breakfast, you evil kitchen appliance.”
So the coffee waited for a couple of hours. After the breakfast, it was time to do some life appreciation in the form of a field trip (yay).
It is amazing how much people have to fail themselves before finally making the decision to change. The number of individuals I know leading this kind of life for months, even years and decades, is skyrocketing. Every day there is a new excuse for the way we treat ourselves; family disputes, financial troubles, problems at work, bad relationships, or bad breakups. Still, the inevitable is always somewhere around the corner, hiding neatly in the shadows, and we constantly act like we will never have to face what is waiting for us there. Well, the hide and seek game none of us really intended to play was finally over for me.
How did some of us become so self-destructive that we push ourselves to the limits of what our mental and physical health can bear? Or is it just the level of modern-day stress that is doing all that for us and we sort of…give in?
Unfortunately, there seems to be no straight answer to those questions. As the adulthood slaps us right into the pimply adolescent faces, it is up to every individual to find a way to deal with all the new responsibilities in life. During the transition, some find it hard to asimilate and create their own little world of unhealthy habits that will be very hard to leave behind later in life. It all depends on the character of a person and what they are willing to sacrifice for more time in this world to do all the things they wish to accomplish.
And the first step in changing your habit-infested lifestyle is as simple as going to the grocery store and buying some cauliflower.
(and actually eating it)